Mindset: Happy

I haven’t posted in a while. It isn’t because I fell into the Dark Place. It isn’t because I’ve been so busy.

I’ve been… happy.

I stopped using my food diary. I stopped weighing myself on a regular basis. I stopped forcing myself to go on early morning walks when I didn’t want to. And guess what? I plateaued. Of course I plateaued. But I’ve learned something: had I kept that food diary and weighed myself and forced myself to go on rigorous walks I was already going to plateau. Because I seem to have a body size that my body just wants to be. 

This is where I am. But I’ve discovered something I haven’t had in a long time: the confidence to be not only OK with where I am, but to embrace it.

Do I want to lose weight? Yes. Do I want to get rid of the deflated balloon on my lower torso? Of course. But I am otherwise healthy and thriving.

I not only allow myself carbs, but I enjoy them sensually. Eww not that kind of sensually, I mean I savor them. Get your head out of the gutter

I’ve started attending a cardio funk class at our gym, and although I am literally the worst at it, I keep going back. Because I like that it is hard. I like that I am not good at it. I leave after that hour of dancing and I am on such an endorphin high.

If I get to age 40 and I’m still a solid 215 pounds, I think I may be in a completely different headspace. That makes all the difference.

Helpful Reading

PCOS Awareness Association


The Relationship Between PCOS and Inflammation


When Not to Treat Depression in PCOS with Antidepressants


PCOS and Depression: Understanding the Connection and Finding Relief

Mayo Clinic

PCOS and Weight Gain


30 Natural Ways to Help Treat PCOS

Johns Hopkins Medicine

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